It didn't break me, O it MADE me! :)

"All I wanna do is love you, all I wanna do is lay here right at Your feet, as i lift my hands towards heaven let Your fire fall down on me rekindle the fire within me Lord, do it once again..."


I have officially been through my first "make me or break me" trials in my Christian walk. And I came out VICTORIOUS! Hallelujah! 
This walk is not an easy one, but I will tell you what.. it's the only walk I EVER want to walk! I learned that you really do have to praise worship God even when you don't feel like it and even when you don't want to and even when you can't FEEL Him. Because His word says "I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee." And even though we go through time when it FEELS like He is nowhere to be found, we have to remember He IS with us! No matter what that devil tries to get you to believe, GOD IS WITH YOU!!! You must trust in His word and BELIEVE! 


My God! 
I got my breakthrough today!
And all it took was some one-on-one time with my Heavenly Father! Imagine that! ha.
I realized today that it was my fault I was struggling so bad. I guess I knew all along it was but I didn't want to admit it. I kept blaming God for leaving me, but He was there all along. He never left me. Looking back I can see that. I wouldn't have made it as long as I have if He would've left me. I would've given up. But He was with me :) 


THANK YOU LORD FOR STAYING WITH ME AND HAVING PATIENCE DURING MY TIME OF IGNORANCE!! 


Now that my joy is back, I should be writing more often. After all, this blog is all about joy, is it not?




I just wanna shout from the roof tops again! I feel that new convert joy coming back! 


(Haggai 2:4-9)


IT'S JOY UNSPEAKABLE AND FULL OF GLORY!


"And I will shake all nations, and the desire of all nations shall come: and I will fill this house with glory, saith the Lord of hosts."
 -Haggai 2:7