Sunday, May 30, 2010

I'm not gonna strike out!

That's all I can say to describe this morning's service.

Bro. Eddy preached on "The Power of Passionate Desire".
It was amazing. To say the least.

I took notes... for a little while anyway, then I got too into it.
I'll share with you the notes I took:
The text he read was Proverbs 13:12,19
verse 12: Hope deferred maketh the heart sick: but when the desire cometh, it is a tree of life.
verse 19: The desire accomplished is sweet to the soul: but it is abomination to fools to depart to evil.

  • Desire: a longing (an emotion or excitement of mind linked to faith)
  • Desire is always linked with possession. It will push you until you have whatever it is you desire.
  • Desire is not wishing, it is an earnest longing for something.
  • Desire- Internal act which influences our will that makes us proceed to action
  • Give God EVERYTHING you are!!!
  • Desire will cause us to separate ourselves! 
  • If there's no desire, there will be no prize!
  • Desire will overcome every circumstance!
  • If there's no desire, you're wasting your time!
  • God will take the thing(s) you love most so you will love Him more!!

That's not many notes. And they don't even come close to showing what an amazing message the Lord gave us this morning. But I'm gonna elaborate a little bit on them.
This is what I got out of this message, the way it spoke to me.

We must have that burning desire in us to long after God.
To strive to be closer and closer to Him.
To never have enough of him.
No matter what God asks of us, we must be willing to give. We must focus all our energy and passion on Him. We must step up to the plate God has called us to and let the devil know we're not gonna strike out! We must be obedient to God. No matter what!
1 Peter 2:9 says "But ye are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a peculiar people; that ye should shew forth the praises of Him who has called you out of darkness into His marvelous light."
God has been using this verse to really deal with me about being different for Him. Not caring what other people think. He called us to be a peculiar people and stand out for Him. Other people's opinions don't matter. In the end His opinion is what is gonna make or break us. Obedience is the key to our blessing. God has plan for every life He created. He will use each person to make a difference. If God places something on our heart, He did it so we could share it with someone else and be a light in their life. You never know what someone else is going through, what God laid on your heart may be exactly what they need to hear to get to their breakthrough point.

What do you desire???

Saturday, May 29, 2010

Answered Prayer

God works in mysterious ways.

My last blog... which only about an hour ago... I was begging God to give me a word to stand on. Something to give me hope and peace and strength.

I just signed on facebook.
The first status update I read said,
"The Father has a plan, though its hard to see it now, and when you feel you are all alone , he is there no doubt!"

Don't tell me my God doesn't answer prayers! 
And boy did He answer that one FAST!

God will make a way

Today has been a tough one.
I thought everything was going to be fine. Yesterday I was really okay, even last night I was still really okay, this morning I was really okay... But ever since this afternoon I'm really not okay.
I don't know what it is.
God gave me such a peace about this yesterday. I knew it would all be okay.
Today, I feel that peace is gone.
Stand still and know that He is God. 
I know He is in control. And I know it WILL all work out. 
It's just this patience thing that keeps getting me.
There is a reason this is having to happen. I don't know the reason and I don't know what will come of it, but I do know God has His hand in this. 
It would just help a LOT if I had a word to stand on in this time. 
Something to give me hope and strength. 

Isaiah 54:5-10
For thy maker is thine husband; the Lord of hosts is his name; and thy redeemer the Holy One of Israel; The God of the whole earth shall he be called. For the Lord hath called thee as a woman forsaken and grieved in spirit, and a wife of youth, when thou wast refused, saith thy God. For a small moment have I forsaken thee; but with great mercies will I gather thee. In a little wrath I hid my face from thee for a moment; but with everlasting kindness will I have mercy on thee, saith the Lord thy redeemer. For this is as the waters of Noah unto me: for as I have sworn that the waters of Noah should no more go over the earth; so have I sworn that I would not be wwroth with thee, nor rebuke thee. For the mountians shall depart, and the hills be removed; but my kindness shall not depart from thee, neither shall the covenant of my peace be removed saith the Lord that hath mercy on thee.

Friday, May 28, 2010


Post #2 for today.

I'm procrastinating
I really should be studying for my history class. But I also really don't want to :]
I see this becoming a problem

I just saw on the news how our "President" is working day and night on this whole oil spill crisis. 
That's funny isn't it? 
I hope everyone realizes how close Jesus' return is. I know, I've heard it all my life, also. But the signs have never been THIS evident before. 
It excites me really. 
I mean, I'm burdened for all the lost people in this world and I really do hate to see life as we know it collapse. But I'm at perfect peace. I'm not worried about what will happen, I know my God is in control. 
And I get to see my JESUS soon! :D

That's why I don't understand how people can go on day to day to day without Him in their lives. I know I wouldn't be able to make it. I would be going crazy right now. 


I love it when my mom calls me then tells me to hang on as soon as I answer the phone. 
Then hangs up on me.
She is so nice. :]
Ha. She just called me back and said she tried to call me but she dialed the wrong number, got an Asian person and thought it was me messing with her.... I feel bad for the lady who answered that phone call.. ha

Well, I'm gonna be a good student and study about Egypt and the beginning of time. And my central Asia map. 
I'm sure I'll be back tonight with an update after church.

My son, if thou be surety for thy friend, if thou hast stricken thy hand with a stranger, Thou art taken with the words of thy mouth, Do this now, my son, and deliver thyself, when thou art come into the hand of thy friemd; go, humble thyself, and make sure thy friend.
Proverbs 6:1-3

God truly is amazing.

When He takes things away from us, He always replaces it. Sometimes it's with something of equal value and sometimes it's something even better.
Friendship is a gift from God.
It's something we should be thankful for, He doesn't have to bless us with friends.
But it seems He always does.
There are times it feels no one is there, like everyone has betrayed me. That's when I must learn to lean on Him. And once I learn that, He blesses me. He knows exactly what we can handle and exactly what we can't handle. That's why we go through the things we do. Trials make us stronger.
I thank God for all the trials He has put me through to help me grow in Him. It has made this life so much more worth living.
For without Him, it would be pointless.

John 14:1
Let not your heart be troubled; ye believe in God and believe also in me.

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Mind Boggle

I know this is my third post for the day.
But hey it's the first day of my new experiment of blogging so it will be okay.

This week has been a tough one. I know it's just the devil fighting me though.
The revival this week has been AMAZING and God has been moving in some pretty powerful ways, so it only makes sense the devil chooses this week.
But hey, victory is my heritage! So I'm gonna stand still and know that HE is God. Everything will work out for His glory according to His perfect will.

It's hard to realize that what we want in life might not be what God wants for us.
As humans we get so attached to other people. We rely solely on them and what they want from us. And in this process we forget about what GOD wants form us. Sometimes we even forget God.....
Gives you something to think about, huh?

Sometimes all I want is someone to love me. To know that there is one person who is with me. I mean, I know God is and I know this might sound bad, but I just want someone I can physically see.
That's when I must remind myself of El Shaddia (My God is more than enough)
But it would be nice to have someone there to encourage me and to share my joy with. Someone I know I could trust and count on... No matter what. He created us to have human companionship. That's why I don't understand why I can't have it right now.

Must learn patience.

Maybe this is why I've been going through the things I've been going through. When you ask God for something, He will give it to you.. maybe not in the way you expected, but it will come. So, maybe when I asked for patience He gave me this because He knew I would have no choice but to be patient with it.

It's tough. I'm not gonna lie.

Something else I've really been having a hard time with lately is worshiping Him the way He wants me to and not caring what other people think. I always get nervous to raise my hand or just praise Him because I wonder what the person next to me or the person across the room might think. God has really been dealing with me about this. Especially this week since we're in revival. He tests me every night. I hate to say this, but I think I've failed each test so far. I want so badly to be obedient to Him, but it seems like every time He asks something of me I get scared and I forget everything He did for me.
But I've made up my mind. Tomorrow night WILL be different! I'm through trying to please other people. I'm tired of slacking because I'm scared of what some deadhead might think. I'm going to push past this barrier and PRAISE MY GOD!

Well, I think that's everything that's on my mind at the moment...
I'm sure more will come tomorrow.
Once I rest.

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you not harm you plans to give you hope and a future.

El Shaddia

God is so mysterious.

We will never be able to comprehend all that He does and all that He is doing in this world. The way He uses each person in just normal day to day life amazes me. Not only each person but each circumstance. Everything we go through in life He uses to make us stronger in Him. 
To make us GROW in Him.
I will never be able to put into words the excitement He has brought to my life. Everyday I learn something new and encouraging! I can honestly say I DON'T KNOW what I would do without Him. 
He is who I lean on when my world goes crashing to the ground. 
I don't see how I ever made it without Him. I would have nothing to live for without Him. No purpose in life. 
He gives everything meaning.
I've gone through many changes in the last couple months of my life. Many heartaches and many struggles. But God was always there for me to run to. He made losing everything the best experience of my life. 
You know, we don't realize it but a lot of times God takes everything away from us to make us realize that He really is ALL we need. El Shaddia. My God is MORE than enough. 
My prayer is that I always remember this. No matter what. I  pray that I will be a light to this dying world. That I will make a differnce because of the difference HE has made in me.

Job 11:1-20
"Then answered Zophar the Naamathite, and said, Should not the multitude of words be answered? and should not a man full of talk be justified? Should thy lies make men hold their peace? and when thou mockest, shall no man make thee ashamed? For thou hast said, My doctrine is pure, and I am clean in thine eyes. But o that God would speak, and open His lips against thee; And that he would shew thee the secrets of wisdom, that they are double to that which is. Know therefore that God exacteth of thee less than thine iniquity deserveth. Canst thou find out the Almighty unto perfection? It is high as heaven; what canst thou do? deeper than hell; what canst thou know? The measure thereof is longer than the earth, and broader than the sea. If he cut off, and shut up, or gather together, then who can hinder him? For he knoweth vain men: he seeth wickedness also; will he not then consider it? For vain man would be wise, though man be born like a wild ass's colt. If thou prepare thine heart, and stretch out thine hands toward him; if iniquity be in thine hand, put it far away, and let not wickedness dwell in thy tabernacles. For then shalt thou lift up thy face without spot; yea, thou shalt be steadfast, and shalt not fear. Because thou shalt not forget thy misery, and remember it as waters that pass away: and thine age shall be clearer than the noonday; thou shalt be shine forth, thou shalt be as the morning. And thou shalt be secure, because there is hope; yea, thou shalt dig about thee, and thou shalt take thy rest in safety. Also thou shalt lie down, and none shall ,ake thee afraid; yea, many shall make suit unto thee. But the eyes of the wicked shall fail, and they shall not escape, and their hope shall be as the giving up of the ghost."

I just can't contain this anymore.

My God is AMAZING!

I wish everyone could experience this feeling of joy and peace that I have experienced over the past three and a half months.
I was raised in church. I knew all about God and His mercy and grace and power. But I never cared. I had never TRUELY experienced it for myself. I thought people were crazy. Nothing could be that amazing... or so I thought.

But boy has GOD changed that opinion!

He saved my life!

Why?? I couldn't tell you that... He just loves me that much.. He sent His ONLY Son to die on a cross for MY sins! It just amazes me!! There was a drop of blood dripping from His body while He hung on that cross for ME! I mean think about this people, it was OVER 2,000 years ago... but there was still a drop for me, and you.

Ohhh how He amazes me!!

You can look at me like I'm crazy all you want. But I don't care anymore :)
All I want is His joy to shine out of me. I want you to see what a difference He has made in my life. Especially those of you who knew me before.
But even more than wanting you to see it, I want you to experience it for yourself. It's an unexplainable feeling. Nothing I say can give it justice.

I just had to express my feelings for a bit.
God has done too much for me, I can't just sit back and keep quiet any longer.

*Psalms 118*